I've just spent a lovely week-end! Romantic diner with my beloved in a very gay restaurant which was most fun...then sweating in the dance floor with a remix disco sound! Too bad they feel the need to remix it...i simply love disco even before the huge success of "Mamma mia"! In Lisbon, singers like Claude François, Dalila who are icones in France are definitely old fashioned...so i end up dancing alone in my house for a few minutes my friends nodding with compassion....waiting for the real music to come up.
Then we had this very dear friends who came by our house... on sunday and while we girls were chatting endlessly men were preparing the meal! and what a diner it was...a tree stars Michelin.
This friend is an artist who doesn't recognize himself as one. Sad but true...at least for the moment. It's such a waste when one finds many excuses to keeps us apart from our inner self. He's so TALENTED but seems to never find the time to dedicate to his creativity. I suggest him "the artist's way" by Julia Cameron who is truly "the artist's bible". She provides us with so many useful exercices and liberating ones. Our creativity flows if we take the time to just aknowledge that it's there, maybe hidden but still there each layer screaming for freedom.
What does it take to be creative?
What does one need to create?
What prevents us from our true self?
I paint two walls in my kitchen, so we can draw, write whatever we feels ...and here is this beautiful elephant draw by my dear friend, looks a bit sad to me but hey.......who am i to say so!
it's a good omen as his tail his opposite the front door so that means GOOD LUCK.
Hopefully his creativity will reveals itself don't know when but in opinion the "when" is not important what is vital for all of us is truly to let out what we are here for.
TO BE WILLING TO
TO BE BRAVE
TO BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT
TO ENJOY THE BLESSINGS OF LIFE...
There's nothing like being in good health and when one is usually in good shape to take it for granted!
So out of the blue i caught this intoxication back in San Francisco...was it the fear of crossing the Golden Gate that made me vulnerable plus the pouring rain! Don't know for sure but i'm pretty ill for a week now which is unerving as i have SO many projects...Don't we all?
Today back to the hospital with a violent pain in my right ear which prevent me from sleeping last night and a double otite as a result! I'm much enjoying my holidays! Tomorrow dentist!
The extraordinary part is that the otites is truly my body eliminating scories from the past. I am doing this regressive therapy, check at www.barbarabrennan.com (for those who are interested) and yesterday was a very powerful session! It takes courage and determination to start a therapy, to heal from our deepest wounds and fears. I had never sensed so rapidly in my body the healing power at work so i accept it and even cherish it though it means feeling vulnerable in the middle.
I hope of course that the outcome will be a more criative and loving Life.
I have so many ideas and projects going on that now i must be assertive! Which is very complicated as i tend to avoid it.Being assertive is not being selfish! everyone knows that, i know it but still...in my mind that means i come first for the moment so i m not very available for those around and i feel...GUILTY. Thanks to our catholics education being guilty for no particular reason seems to be the natural way... and escaping from it takes again courage.
I'm in the process of growing up, of being a woman who has a Life of its own, who is able to made her own decisions and TRUST her inner thoughts and intuition. See why i'm ill! Pretty scary hein... but very much challenging too.
Tonight, even with all my medicine, I'm going along with my husband to assist a conference held by Matthieu Ricard, budhist and personal assistant of the Dalai Lama. Researches have been made, in his brain and the results are spectacular as his degree of total happiness is so prodigious that it escape all statistics! We are very excited to be able to listen to a holy man and to benefit from his imense aura.
Tomorrow there's "NOITES DO PRINCIPE REAL" Rua D Pedro V em festa. I'll tell you more...
HAVE FUN ... RELAX
My inner child is HAPPY... A week ago I receive a mail from SIC(portuguese television) to know if i was ok to realize an album for Fátima Lopes "Vida Nova" for her birthday! I was so excited that i imediately say yes without thinking...i'm leo ascendant sagitarius.... so when i opened my timetable i discover that her birthday were in a week ahead and not in 15 as i had guessed. To tell it was an enormous challenge is still far ahead from the true as i usually made my albums within 2 months in a calm and relax way!
So here i was confronted with the" task of doing a good job" for the most popular portuguese talk show presentator. Her team are not only professionals but most of all kind and true people so in the end it turn out easier than it seemed.
As ideas were flowing came the worry "what should i dress" know the feeling girls!!! i've got absolutely nothing to wear total panic so here i go with a very sexy friend.......who choose for me ......a very sexy outfit......that my husband and mom hate from the start. Everyone was giving those wild ideas even my friend Franck told me to wear......my wedding dress so it was fun in between panic.
In the end ........ Fátima Lopes loved my present and she even cry with emotion. I mean what more does an artist want! She was deeply touched and made me a compliment that almost make me cry as well:" People do trust you, Alex, to confide their most precious treasures to you, you are blessed"
I've learned once again that we are more capable than what we think at first.
New doors have opened to me can't wait the next challenge!
Have fun....
