Time to make an amend

Monday morning...another fresh week ahead and I am in a bad mood...My appointment to the "pain killer" is a 4pm, I feel dizzy and it seems that my energy was all taken from me. Know the feeling? When there is so much to do and the body is on strike...just washing myself seems a terrible ordeal. 
I had a terrible argument with a close friend friday night and saturday i was ill, i believe there's a connection as the mind-body work together. 
She's about to date a much younger man and in asking her what would her entourage think about it, our mutual comunication come to a stop. 
I understood that what's IN is to date much younger man which is not my case as my husband...is older! That we would all envy her of course being both strong head and sometimes stubborn it went crescendo...Sorry for the neighboors.

It was very interesting afterwards to talk about it as we didn't stay in our benches we made a move towards each other (that's the good thing of ageing) and we dissecate what went wrong in the comunication. She understood that i was judging her and that something was wrong with her in the age difference. Was I? I consider myself a very open person, being non-judgemental is one of my main qualities. Yet, with insight i realize that if she sense it then i must have judge her...oups! Time to make an amend.We have our own stories to live with diferent scenarios and that's ok. We tend to constantly compare and that is very tiresome i must say. I don't run out of a discussion, things are to be said but as i lack diplomacy i should follow my grandmother advise "ne parler qu à bon escient" or be more tactful, ask an elephant to behave in a crystal shop. See complicated the best is to avoid crystal shops...not easy sometimes we just bump into them. 
What we want to say and what the other understands, there's sometimes an ocean in between.
It was not zen week-end but a profitable one as i make one more little step towards good comunication and tolerance. My brother is completely in love with an older woman and that's ok. LOVE is what matters in the end
xo 
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I am a coward

I am a coward! I should have been to the dentist long ago... I'm so scared that i postpone it every single day. I'm lucky to have a very sweet kind and pro dentist who happens to be very patient but still.....deep down I don't trust her or any other of their colleagues. So it turns out to be very complicated! My reptilian brain is scared out of death...when I in the waiting room my body feels tense and starts to sweat at high speed. it's uncontrolable! Now is sunday so tomorrow I have to go, as i am suffering too much. silly girl! wish me luck!
have a good and happy sunday

To remain a child

To remain a child is truly the secret of happiness. To value what we have instead of wanting always more and more. That's basically what the journalist wrote in her article so how come it's so difficult for most people? We are constantly submerged by advertising, trash magazines and tv a friend told me. Yes it is true but on the other hand you can turn the tv off and not reading those magazines (i know you don't buy them....) in the hairdresser and so on... It is easier as the Dalai Lama says to live in beautiful hymalayas than downtown Paris at the rush hours (when the metro isn't on strike of course! ) but i believe that it takes discipline to be truly happy. 

The significant change around in years to come will definitely be "how to be positive and happy" and that from kindergarden till adulthood. The schools will have workshop on happiness as they used to have about values. Crazy idea? I sense a new era, our knowledge of the brain and his impact in our day to day life is about to burst out. I believe will come to use 20% of our brains in a near future. Times are changing... well in the meantime I'm going to exercise my butt that needs it badly!
Have a beautiful day
Live like a child happy and content
xo

Are you Happy?

Yesterday, after a perfect day in the beach, shower taken, feeling relaxed and cool, I took this portuguese magazine "Happy" and come upon this article about Happiness. 

The question that the journalist kept asking around her while doing her research was:

ARE YOU HAPPY?

Reactions where almost the same for everyone, utter embarrassment, as if it was a bad word! She was most surprised in realizing that in fact few people acknowledged being truly happy, most of them wish they had a better life, working less, a bigger house, a fashion car.... 

What whose the secret of the happy few?

What do you think?

ARE YOU HAPPY?

xo

Feeling good

After 3 years of laziness ...I just started gym again in full turbo! Wow it really feels good one always think how come if it feels so good have you stopped? Lack of self discipline, others things to do that felt more important at the time bla bla.....excuses that i fail to understand as after a good hour of exercising one feels energize clean from within. I have so many questions and so few answers ...but Life is an ongoing process right?
So after a relaxed summer back to the studio to create and that to feels good.
As children are about to begin school here in Europe there's always a time for me to rethink my life and goals for the year ahead. 
I do have plenty of projects still little time to realize them but that's one of my main goals for 2011 TAKE THE TIME TO DO WHAT'S BEST FOR ME without feeling guilty or selfish... As by now I integrate that the lack of afirmation brings in the end conflict with the ones I love most, so let's take the problem at roots and learn definitely to say NO I'M NOT IN THE MOOD, I HAVE OTHERS PLANS...
Ring a bell? I sense is more a woman problem than male, as we tend to be in a constant flow of giving. Aren't we all from Venus? 
Going to take a nap that feels good too....


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It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth...and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest as if it was the only one we had.

Elisabeth Kubler Ross

So true 

I have to say that globalization has good sides...like when it's 3am in Seoul where I am right now eating a delicious cheeseburger with french fries from Mc donald's because eating dim sum at this hour is too complicated for my stomach! or my imagination probably...i withdraw my comments from my last post!

Traveling is still after all this years a pleasure to me, to discovered new places and different habits but with the jet lag i love globalization after all...

xo

Stop the globalization...

Just come back from my favorite bookstore in the US, Borders where one can find all the crafts magazines around with the latest news. Love it! That's one thing i will not find in China...fortunately i would say as i'm not in the mood of this globalization. Wherever you go you'll find the same  starbuck and zara. Just learned that the chinese governement turned down an entire old merchant street in Shangai to rebuilt a week later something they believe is more profitable...a starbuck among other things....
Where did the old man who made the best chineses raviolis go?
Where did the other one with their old pharmacopee go?
Human behavior will always be a completely mystery to me. How can they wipe out their story, their tradition? In fifty years time they will be no more hidden treasures in China only Starcks hotels!

I cherish old things and antiques.
I love listening to old peoples 
I love the past so that i can understand where i come from where i want to go
I love being part of a culture and a tradition
and...as i've been traveling for more than twenty years now i love going to old markets, eat sushis in Tokyo, Caipirinha in Rio de Janeiro, Caesar salad in the States....not having this ackward feeling that everything is the same worlwide. Stop with this greed of shopping. Ultimately the artisans will disappear and our column vertebral for that matter
We are different and that's the fun of it! Thank's God there is an awareness today, a lot is being doing to preserve and improve but not everywhere, not yet!
Our essence as human beings are the same we all look for love and to be loved( well maybe not the chinese.....just kidding!)
Heading to Paris where history and beauty lies in every corner. 
xo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XANDINHA

We are three in the pictures! 41 years old it's been a long and difficult road. Sometimes it's worth it others i just want to skip it, like we all do once in a while. Hopefully there's still plenty to go, God knows. The forties bring an awareness that i ve search for a long time so it's good if we could stop the wrinkles then it would be perfect...As we don't live in a perfect world the better is to accept them with serenity and keep on smiling, at least the'll be happy wrinkles!
It's been a long journey and i've been blessed most of the time without realizing it, i have to admit! 


Blessed to be alive
Blessed to be in health
Blessed with a strong powerful mom and her inconditional love
Blessed with the admiration of a devoted father
Blessed with the love and friendship of my husband
Blessed with the trust and tenderness of a little big brother
Blessed with my delicious uncle Tio Ze Rui that i cherish so much
Blessed with my godmother Isabel who will always be there for me
Blessed with my soul mate Leo Ana who understands me so well (aren't we alike!)
Blessed with my friend Francky with whom i can dance for 12 h in a row(he's me in male)
Blessed with my parisian and witty friend Emanuelle who encourages me so much  
Blessed with my creative friend Carlos Miguel with whom i laugh so much
Blessed with my dear artfriends who inspire me so much Amanda, Adie, Janne, Nikki, Stephanie, Jessica, Amy, Lisa
Blessed to be able to create
Blessed to travel worlwide
Blessed to welcome new friends Alex and Bella 
Blessed to have my cat Frimousse who gives me so much tenderness

 Merci a tous 

Je compte m'amuser aujourd'hui

I will have fun today

xo

Love letter

The 4th of august I will be...forever young! My mom and husband are already trying to figure out how they can surprise me. As presents books will be my ever first choice, i'm never tired of books. There's nothing like the ritual of sitting in my favorite sofa with a huge cup of tea with milk, savouring and anticipating the emotions the book hopefully will bring. And when it does, one feels revigorate and joyful.  
 I remembered one of the best presents i received a couple of years ago and that i carry every day with me in my purse, it's an unconditional love letter from my mom. She had this weird dream that something was going to happen to her and she wanted very much to tell us how much she both loved us my little big brother and I. In the era of internet  mails and twitter, we rarely take the time to send love or friendship letters at all which in a way it's a pity. 
I reread my precious letter now and then with the same positive outburst of emotions and she is always present with me wherever i am in the world. 

                       BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

So good to be on holiday...

After two days in the beach, I feel that my body and my soul are recovering pretty fast. There's nothing like a day in the sun to regain energy and I have still 15 days hourra!!! Rereading "light emerging" from Barbara Brennan and she tells us exactly that among other extraordinary things, how much the sun has a power and healing effect on us in a physical, mental, emotional and spiritual way. 
Check at your nearest theatre "Inception" with Di Caprio and Marion Clotillard, is truly the best film i have seen in years. Dreams are the main subject of the film who evolves around the idea that though difficult if one can incept a thought associated with a strong positive feeling within our brain while we are dreaming then when we wake up our attitude, thoughts, behaviors have changed. We are a total different person. It's a powerful movie, one that keeps you wondering what if.....Love it! The essence of the movie is "we are what we think we are" the mind is the gatekeeper everything comes from your thoughts. 


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