The man I love

Ao longo de estes anos todos a viajar tenho-me apercebido que finalmente procuramos todos a mesma coisa AMAR E SER AMADO e o quanto é complicado viver a dois. Tenho que reconhecer que tenho mau feitio, a minha amiga astróloga Ana diz-me que é o saturno com quadratura a.......o que sei é que sou muito impaciente e bruta, de diplomata infelizmente não tenho nada deve ser o meu signo Leão ascendente sagitário! Fogo-fogo! Felizmente tenho a benção de partilhar a vida com o Luis, que nasceu para ser relações públicas e que é um dos poucos homens  que conheço que mudou de postura, que aceita modificar as suas crenças quando já não são válidas... que faz jejuns a água durante 15 dias sózinho, que tem sede de aprender coisas novas e de experimentá-las como a auto hipnose por exemplo...Neste mundo ainda machista é verdadeiramente de louvar. Tenho a sorte de ter um homem aberto a novas realidades, profundo e corajoso. Porque é realmente preciso ter um cáracter fora do comum para nos transformarmos...Deu-me ao longo destes anos provas de amor incondicional. Preciso de admirar as pessoas que amo e....aí vem o meu "mau feitio" gosto de lutadores e não de vítimas. Tive um exemplo com o meu avô paterno Marcel Jung que foi um homem que se revelou nas 3 doenças supostamente incuráveis que teve ao longo dos anos. Amputaram-lhe uma das pernas quando a paixão dele era dançar, teve a "maladie de crohn" e "spondylarthrite ankylosante"...e mesmo assim NUNCA BAIXOU OS BRAÇOS como o LUIS . Não me interpretem mal, compreendo que tenhamos momentos em que esgotamos as nossas forças, em que só o facto de se levantar de manhá torna-se pesado, em que pareçe não haver soluções...Eu tenho uma grande empatia com o mundo que me rodeia mas vejo muitas pessoas a minha volta olharem únicamente para o "umbigo" e sugarem as energias dos outros sem se aperceberem disso. "Ter  as mãos ocupadas" diz a minha querida amiga Jaqueline e todos os dias tento seguir o seu conselho...a very wise woman indeed... e olhar para o que temos invés do que não temos diz o Dalai Lama"the art of happiness"

Problemas? quem não tem... é a maneira como os enfrentamos que faz a meu ver toda a diferença. E ser feliz "no matter what" acho um dever perante os outros, rir quando apetece chorar, dançar... e sobretudo DAR MUITO, DAR.....sem limites BE HAPPY...HAVE FUN

Feira Craft and Design

Foram dois dias cheios de risos, encontros, partilhas...novas ideias. Obrigado a Luisa, Mafalda e Florbela pela organização e a boa onda. Foi a minha primeira feira e se Deus quiser não será a última! Tivemos a sorte de ter sol quando previam chuva...visitantes curiosos, agradáveis, amigos que me deram apoio, muita criatividade, boa energia e muito.....café na parte que me toca! Vou recomeçar a spirulina que dá imenso energia e de que tanto preciso. Tive a sorte de ter ao meu lado esquerdo uma artista como a Joana 

(obrigado mil vezes pela excelente ideia dos sacos! ) que tem uma enorme criatividade e alegria e que espero voltar a ver de novo e ao meu lado direito a margarida  

 com porcelanas de limoges lindas assim com a Cristina

que tem uns peixes super originais e uma energia a carneiro! A Carla com os seus "stuffed"(nome da revista americana que tem peluches na mesma onda que os teus)...Resumindo ADOREI....dois dias óptimos como eu gosto sol, muita luz, boa energia, muitos encontros inesperados e divertidos, boa disposição, risos...partilhas, amigos  e 

sempre disponível fiável e presente a Mãe e o Luis. 

Comme c'est bon de se savoir aimée et entourée(merci fréro pour ton appui téléphonique)

No mês de novembro há mais...Obrigada                and remember HAVE FUN BE HAPPY.....enjoy

Therapy album

I had a lot of questions through facebook what does your therapy consist of? Hypnose is it dangerous.....etc. So i'll try to answer what it makes to me of course as i can't speak for others. As far as i remember i was always a big fan of therapy. I believe that despite our parents love we still outgrow with wrong beliefs about ourselves and that's where our troubles begin!

My main problem is, was the value or the lack of it....others are always better than myself prettier, clever, funnier...You get the pictures! I missed  always something and grow up deeply believing that i was inadequate. I had to be more, to make more efforts as i was less...God all this wasted years, so many tears, such despair. Little did i know at that time , that our thoughts make our experiences. So i continue during years my victimisation. 

Life isnt easy

Life is a struggle

blabla.....bla.

I started a therapy who produces good results then stopped and .....my old demons came back so i started another one.....

What i didn't realize up to very recently is the crucial importance of one thoughts and that they are a day to day discipline. Don't get me wrong i'm not into this new age think positive and you'll live in paradise! But today  i strongly believe through my experience that is very easy to fall again, our wrong thoughts take the lead and off we go.....upside down feeling miserable and victim again ( we all do...) We get what we believe. So the only solution is to change our beliefs and to achieve that is day by day being kind with ourselves, patient and LOVING. A comfortable and easy way is through auto hipnose, just insert the cd on your laptop and prepare yourself to a peaceful and creative journey of 30mn...and VISUALIZE. It takes discipline as we seem to have always something more urgent to do but what is 30mn in a day?My 40  made me think a lot and realize that time was running fast. I still have a lot of goals, dreams, challenges...and therefore little time for victimisation.My psy ask me to bring along a journal and i decide to make my own and personalize it. It was fun, creative and...very productive. The pouch contains qualities that i attribute myself and pick one every morning. We are the ones who change our lives, we have full responsability of what is happening in our lives and before accepting that no change is possible.

 

JE DIS OUI A LA VIE ET AU BONHEUR

YES TO LIFE AND HAPPINESS

SIM A VIDA E A FELICIDADE

 Keep your hand busy, best advise from my oldest and dearest friend Jaqueline that at the age of 80 bought a computer so she can speak with us through skype and visit online museems Wow! Quelle force, courage et joie de vivre. 

HAVE FUN.......ENJOY

It's all about inconditional LOVE

I just finished this altered book with a true nest dedicated to my grandmother, mom and myself.I hesitate at first as the nest seem so delicate and fragile but then...what a challenge. Made from an old book with pages tearing apart , found some newspapers from 1945, an old manuscrit bought in New York,my little drawers with tarot cards( both my mom and grandmother have an enormous intuition) I try to represent everyone of us. It was fun and easy, we share so many memories, complicity and most of all UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

As i was sewing the 1945 newspaper"le Figaro", i kept wondering about all that my beloved grandmother had gone through world war 2, the fear, Paris being occupied, living each day not knowing if tomorrow would come, finding basic food to give to her family...even in my worst nightmares i can't imagine what it represents living under constant fear. What courage those generations had. You will tell me every decade has his struggle, so true but yet we live in a free world and there's nothing compare to freedom.My mother fall in love in 1967 with a portuguese man, Dad and at that time Portugal was under a dictature that was very difficult to her. She had to wait till 1974 and Carnation Revolution for the democracy to install and the price was very high for a lot of people.Very controversial times. Now we have to face a different type of war but nonetheless scary. So Love is the answer and always will be. I know i kept repeating myself... I was very inspire and took a lot of pleasure, adding little signs here and there.   

Love is the ultimate healer

Love is where i want to go. 

Love is what i want to give and receive

Love is the best thing to experience  Have fun and enjoy

Flea market in Paris

For us who love to craft, Paris is a magical place. I convince Luis to come with me to "les puces de clignancourt". First stop, I recommend a baguette with saucisson(not light but so tasty) along with a bordeaux, chinon ou côtes du rhônes and enjoy, then you are able to fully appreciate the vue. I know french don't have a good reputation so I was more than happy to hear back in Artfest that I was an exception(must be my portuguese side!) once you've overcome the fact that french are bad humored towards everyone not just you! you can relax and start the search. It's like disneyland, so many treasures.I was completely excited to find a 18th doll little dress, it's absolutely gorgeous, the story that it carries, who did it belong to, what misteries lay within...I was close to tears with emotion, Luis at that point was sharing my happiness and content and help me find others small objects. It was a blessed day! We laugh, dance and hug a lot. Back in the studio, I look at my small doll dress and touch it now and then just to feel the texture, and even the smell of ancient. LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT... My mother made me yesterday an hipnose session and had me commit to have two sessions every week, as she thinks i need to regain some balance and strengh in my life. Normally i should made them alone but of course i'm lazy and love her slow and deep voice.The results of erickson hipnose are quite espectacular if one pratices with regularity.I'm blessed and very fortunate to have chosen such a mom, who is always happy, giving her energy and her time around. HAVE FUN and ENJOY... BE HAPPY

I need to pray

 I need to pray.I come to realize over those years as my life hasn't turn the way I wanted it to be, that I forgot God. I remember back in my thirties how much I crave for love, how worry I was to remain alone. That was my ultimate desire , TO BE IN LOVE.Then I met Luis my beloved husband and remember this is it...Finally I'm Home little did I know that LIFE is an ongoing struggle(at least for me of course).

Don't get me wrong, I value the love we have together, deeply believe it's rare, profound and unique, but I HAD A DREAM....

The dream of the husband,2 childrens and the dog or a cat!!!!!

So common one could say,I don't want to climb the everest or save the world, just to add my small contribution by loving family and friends the best I can. That's where I forgot God and become very enraged for a moment and still am once in a while! How can this happen to me, I refuse despite the utter evidence that I'm in a fertility program that maybe it won't work, maybe I will never hold my child,maybe after all those years there's no happy end. I heard so many stories with so many solutions.I still have 3 to go...and now I've become so confused, do I really want a child or I relish the idea of beeing like everyone else, beeing part of the whole? Am I forcing God's will? Am I punished? My husband repeats me that it's like a mantra, an obsession. We tend to believe with all this positive new age current that everything is possible, we have the control of our lives....when did we came up with this absolutely crazy idea? God is in charge and will always be. Period, no need to argue or to bargain. My mental is ok with that but deep within I recognize it's difficult TO LET GO, REALLY BECOME A BELIEVER THAT GOD KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR ME.

How do you manage to achieve that? So many questions without answers...One just had to experience, bad or good in the end that's what we came here for? isnt'it?

I managed not to drown completely over this last four years, a new world of creativity and friends opened to me with mixed media. Be blessed. I'm proud of me as I choose the LOVE PATH, not always easy the bitter one was so close but I fight back. Maybe I will never become a mother but definetely I become a better person and don't we all have ours wounds to heal?

LOVE IS THE ANSWER...and always will be

Nb: If you're in Paris go Rue du bac to have this miraculous medals, there's a certain energy around.

BE BLESSED........HAVE FUN 

HOME SWEET HOME

I'm coming to you my love...Tomorrow will be together if God allows it. Feel you, hold you, kiss you. 

You are my joy, my love , my safe nest....Sleep well as is 22pm in Lisbon and 16pm here in Mexico. I'm going to work with you aside as you are always.

Secret desire

I'm in Mexico city the weather is pretty bad.....i'm homesick! I want to go HOME. I want to ckeck the mail, other pages must have arrived by now, start working on Jessica's page dream theme.....CREATE and stay at Home with my beloved husband. How does it sound? A very good program but before, off I go to Sao Paulo which is another mega city, very crowded and polluted. If you start thinking about the people living here everyday, with the huge trafic the constant noise. How do they remain focused, balanced? it's almost impossible to be equilibrated when you look around? Where to escape? How they manage to live and still pursue their dreams it's a mistery, but that is also what's incredible with the human being is our capacities to adapt and adjust no matter the difficulties. Most of them left their villages in hope for a better life, do they regret it? They were in their village with Mother Nature around, knowing everyone from childhood with a deep sense of comunity and friendship but with little expectations for work so they had the courage and determination to leave to "the capital". What is the purpose in OUR LIFES? What are we here for? Does everyone have a mission? If yes what is mine for example? What is yours? 

 How do you recognize your goal in LIFE? What to fight for? and when do we need to let go? As i travelled around the world and fortunately meet all kind of different people we all share the secret desire OF LOVE and BEING LOVED. LOVE IS THE ANSWER and always will be.

LOVE IS THE HEALING

Collaborative project

I've send my altered book to my dear art friend Amanda who send it to? So for now is a big mystery but i know he will be cherish and treasure. I dream of being part of a collaborative project so i'm in, good for me. i'm waiting the postman impatiently did i receive any letter from the US? not today maybe tomorrow. Jessica theme is dream. Tami is witches Jill vintage stuff...it's really exciting but most of all it gives me a feeling of being part of... be integrated, sharing with art friends giving,paying attention and thanks to Artfest. There was truly a before and after Artfest

Loyalty over the years

I've come to realize how much i carry of my grandmother's own story. It's rather interesting to observe in our life's what belongs to us and what doesn't.Most of the time it skips one generation rather inconsciously and it can become a burden over the years. I have this inconscious loyalty towards my beloved Mamie that i want to let go for now. It seems easy writing it down but how will i know the interior work has been made? When my LIFE starts to change,will answer my wise mom!!! My homework is to write a letter about my feelings, what i want and don't want to keep, then burn the letter and doing it till i feel that it's ok. I've done it in the past for others problems that kept me from evolving and the results were awesome. Now it seems more confusing as is for someone i deeply love and worship. You will reply me that one thing is loving someone and the other is reprove certain attitudes...correct but still i will need more than one letter! Old habits die hard... another strong belief that i have to eradicate as everything that i attract come from my thoughts and beliefs. Mamie used to tell us over and over that one has to fight, Life is hard, Life is a struggle... Tomorrow first thing in the morning, my letter and then off to the beach.. LIFE IS FUN LIFE IS FULFILLING and then thursday RIO DE JANEIRO Le Bonheur est aussi une question de volonté